Even Gravity is not responsible for you falling in Love...

It took me an hour to substitute his picture or his name, but both the attempt went worthless. I think, I will never be able to do with the substitution anyways... may be a year or two will suffice the whole search ;)

Now what is that I like the most about being in Love of the idea that I was in love... I guess it is all about the person I was in love with or maybe it was the aura of our being in Love together. I still cant forget the first time I ever met him, so by himself but something about his angelic look took my heart away. No, not Love at first site. it never happened and I really don't believe in this theory too. You can never fall in love with the person without knowing him and maybe I fell so badly after completing knowing and finding his each weakness so unique and so very him... He made me fall in Love completely with him as a person he was and that is something which will always be special about our relation.

I heard something that marriages finish Love... Is it?

I guess that make it more strong by time knowing that each uniqueness you have been completely in love with is now onwards all your responsibility. I think problem occur when expectations occurs. But, why do we expect at the first place?

Did we fell in Love expecting that the other person will love us equally and same the each very day? No, it just happened... We grew with time... We all grow with time and I feel a couple should grow with time too but their Love should always be as immature and fresh as on the first day and maybe that is possible only when our second half is our Dream man/woman and not when we expect them to become our dream people. Expectations ruins the fun :)

Being in Love I have always admired his child like qualities and those complete non-stop irrelevant talks he do about everything he wanna do and have in his life. This liking have not come because I am in love with that person but the Love towards him like an elder have come because of my liking of his this quality. Given any point of time, I can always listen to him non-stop and that too without getting bored or expecting him to stop talking. I guess, the kid which plays in his eyes and on face while these talks certainly do take my heart away and make me fall in love with him all over again just like the first day I saw his angelic face.

And then, fun of a relation we always miss in front of our work is priority toward our Love. Have you ever tried bunking work to be completely with the other person entire day or maybe to go on a vacation ;)
Now, we raise our eyebrows to this then, is a surprise day for the one you love is so very big in compared to those 25 days you are always engrossed in work. I feel, its fun to sometime make the person your priority completely and certainly the delight which you feel is incomparable. I still remember those days fighting or complaining about doing this but then completely enjoying an evening or a day with him. I feel few unexpected things give you immense pleasure than all luxuries clubbed together.

Now, when talking about him I wanna mention another quality which always brings smile to my face... His Lazy nature or may be a confused attitude he toward life... Though somewhere I had a secret wish to take care of it for my entire life but then we always don get what we EXPECT! But, certainly love is not about this.. even you do not make to your expectation you can certainly and always blush about few things.. And though I know that it is one of a complete negative quality but still thats what make his so special.

Love is indeed a beautiful feeling all together. I personally feel that if we have any valid reason for fighting or giving up few things in Life... It is certainly Love... No doubt this makes the journey worthwhile no matter how and where our destination or destiny is.

so... falling in love with you was like a fairly tale... I understand that it is a real world so had less chances for happy ending but somewhere I will always be delighted and blessed about the fact that you made the ride worthy.

Muah...
Lots of Love! Anji

Its not your fault for I love you...

Came across the song by Aadil... Hope you remembered this DJ. and cant help humming the lyrics and here a small poem :)

Its not your fault for I love you... Its just something still bind us together,

I also know that moving away take just seconds and moving on forever,

yesterday when I kissed you goodbye I knew it pained deep inside,

but its just a matter of time and I know everything gonna get alright,

We both will move on our separate paths and will do our responsibilities,

for love was always an asset of ours and never a liability,

and i knew we will still be friends forever though how far we live,

coz its not only about the pains but also all the love you selflessly gave,

and always will i held my heart up and loudest will be my shout,

for i will always be proud about us and the relation it was all about,

I know you had to move and I will never gonna stop you,

But again its not your fault for I still and will always love you...

Lots of Love!Anji

Believe in destinies?

With my habit of going through some videos i came across this one now... and believe me, no emotional stuffs i am writing but a true fact. But, before i open my mouth.. a must compliment.. Awesome song this is... Loved it :)

Now, Do u guys believe in Destinies?

You will say.. 21st century, and this crazy woman talking about destinies and fate!

But then, it is strange that we come across it daily. Yes!

and one thing i always say, be careful for what you wish for and always believe in your heart for heart holds the true feelings to anything in this world... whether Hate or Love, it is always sure about what it wants.

We all wish for things from god and then when we get it, completely forget that how much we needed it at one time. You will say, that maybe when god granted us we did not need it anymore and thats where i say, that means that the thing we wished for was never important at first place, it was a timely demand and something we can take care even if it does not exist in our life. what a waste of wish!

At heart breaks we wish so much for patch up but do we ever realize that it is we who have to do the things right or put in that effort because the other person is need for our soul and it is our heart wish... are we really so adamant to have that as our destiny that we are ready to do everything to get that small desire of our heart? If not, then forget it and move on :)... but, if you cant then please do something about it. It is your destiny and you have to make it!

Believe me, our all wishes are granted and it is only we who loose their importance with time because that was never so important for us that it made our lives incomplete. So, if we have a half filled dream, a love to get, an ambition to achieve... Lets get going... Lets create our destinies and if needed, lets fight for it if needed, instead of having a regret that we could have been happy but we just not put that extra bit ;)

Lots of Love!Anji

Liabilities of Love...

December is weighing me down not because of some big burdens but few thoughts of past.
I remember september when sitting with him in one of the gardens we discussed a very important talk with light chat. But, i realized it importance somewhere in december.

He told me, relations are to be handled with care and not taken for granted for we were discussing our break-up and he told me that would i have been so adamant on moving out of his life if we were married?

that question of his somewhere shut me up and made me realize importance of liability that day. So, is marriage a liability of love?

don know how many of us treat the family members of our love like our family member before we get in tied with the liability or how many of us really take responsibility of each other before we are again put in to the liable deal?
I guess, none.
Does a wife or a husband react to their mates same way a girl friend or a boy friend will react if they cheat?
I don think so... somewhere the liability ties them and bound them to be together with all the compromise.

But,in love we take our leverage anytime without being responsible for we are not liable. We walk-in and walk-out of it and can always make our individual decisions.
We can always chose to be with the different partner or change our partners...
We have no liabilities to bear the responsibility of family members.. nor we are liable to plan or support each other life.. Just an ease of taking stands of the convenient option.

So, sometime i really wonder that why people say that love has to be selfless... is it some tact by a smart person to get rid of all liability n responsibility or it is just a hidden suggestion to all lovers that it is always better to get into liabilities if you are not capable enough to be managed as assets ;)... well, we all need warranties for everything so how can we leave heart aside :)

Point to be noted My Lord, I guess Marriages are liability of Love.So, if you wanna be happy n a free bird.. You know you gotta b single ;)

Lots of Love! Anji

You can Learn to Love only by loving

Laid my hands on Zubeidaa after a long time. There is something which pulls me to this movie.

Maybe LOVE.

One of the strange movie I saw and till date my favorite. Cant believe it is a real story on some one life. How can one bear the pain of love is best showed in the movie. And ofcourse, what an Indian society takes out from the woman :)

Zubeidaa... A girl full of Dreams, Life, passion and here she was in a conservative family who married her off without will, always interfered in her life to an extent that she got divorced with her father consent. and then she fell in love with her dream man... Love can make you do unbelievable, unexpected :)

She leaves her family, her child and her identity for the one she loved... So madly in love she was with her man- Her Life. And then one day she realized that this small and only happiness of her life is going away too and she did something which was shocking... A Mystery Death... A plain crash!

But anybody who can understand love will tell that Zubeidaa did the extreme for her love... Yes, her only desire was that. Love and to be Loved and she gave in all to that.

Karishma looked the most beautiful ever in this movie of Shyam Benegal and her performance is simply splendid.

A master piece is what i can call Zubeidaa.

"Abke bichade hum yun milenge khwabon me... Jaise sookhe phool milte hain Kitaabo me..."

Lots of Love!Anji

How the hell can God create something so AMAZING ;)

now... I don know i am complaining or i am astonished but really do not know how can any body create something so amazing like MOMS!!!

man.. you sneeze and she knows sitting miles away that there is something wrong with you. and seeing myself in and out... I always compliment MY MOM that she is doing a commendable job ;)

i still remember a night when i was just feeling lil uneasy and bored and slept off to kill all bad thoughts and morning was her miss call just at the time i felt relaxed the previous night and certainly i woke up with her morning call too where she asked me all about the previous day, food, health, winter clothing...ouff... how did she knew that last night i really wanted that warm hug and care for the day was realy realy long!

But then... Do i have an option to say but accept that SHE IS MOM..... THE BIGGEST MAGICIANS ON PLANET EARTH!!!!

always i have been a real pain for her... my habits, my tantrums, my freaky nature, my wild and crazy dreams, temperaments... and all she accepted with patience and smile... and only one thing to ask for.. My happiness :) :)

How can anybody be so selfless on this god dammit planet? How can anybody just give love and care and not ask for even a thanks in return?

MOMS.... what are you made of ;)

love you yaar... and just wanna say... i am a luckiest idiot to have you in my life to always keep me safe :)

MUAAAAHHHHH :) :)
Lots of Love!Anji

"Lost my soul" - Its true love takes more than your soul from you!

Well... Putting Twilight here is the best example to describe the write up. Bella was ready to give away her soul for her love... what a great sacrifice?
but, don we do that sacrifice daily?
there is a famous saying... all is fare in love and war... well, i have never experienced war but Love certainly make you do unexpected.
It is like a drug... you fall for it and there is no way out. Either you need to have it to keep you sane or you die!
and in process to have it you do everything which is unfair.. unethical.. illogical and sometimes certainly unexpected.

Remember... what fun it is to lie to entire world for one you love... to meet him/her secretly... not telling the world that you are in love but blushing at the every mention of the one's name :)

Well... this is puppy love we are talking about... one we experience in high school, college...
Then comes... a mature love story...
two responsible individuals but then equally in love with their ego clashes... family...society... commitment... But, then there also goes all the tricks of the trade.. you will fight with your parents.. daily! telling them not to decide about your life... you give a damn to society and walk out having the most beautiful experience of your life and commitments????... what word is this?

And then an soul less act... breaking hearts... lieing every moment and not able to decide what you want... not able to decide... just like a drug addict... wanting the drug every moment but not fighting coz of lack of courage... ouffff.... thats painful now...but... we do that soul less act still...

anyways... as somebody said... "Drug either gives you the best feeling of being high or Kills!!!"...


Lots of Love!Anji

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okay... this dedicated to some one really special.... it has all my thoughts for you :) :)

Its just to say... He completes me !

Lots of Love!Anji