I always wonder, what is better in pursuit of peace.. knowing nothing and be the virgin of life or exploring every aspect like a curious toddler ready to experience power of his hands and mouth.
Well, I don't want to dwell on it right now. For i want to talk about a girl who always make me wonder... Am I elder or she?
Neha, my sister born 1 year, 5 Months and few hours younger to me. Growing up together had been fun for we never needed friends throughout school life.. Obvious, it was all about sibling bond. Still, we were all set to make our mark in the existing environment for belonging from a very closed environment at home, it had always been tough for both of us to have those best time with friends at school which most people talk about, so it was quiet obvious we never had a school friend circle. Only buddy left to each other was us.
She has been the fairer league, obvious the beautiful one. And our mother ensured always to make that a point. Well, later in life and seeing all my childhood picture I also sometime wonder, God, from where that I brought all those extra polish on my face. I had been as tanned as bottom of pressure cooker most of my childhood n late teen. Thanks to that I had never been The Dream Girl to any mad lover ever. Though Neha did had few crushes and out of the 2 of us, she was the first one to have a boyfriend. For which I had been always so excited that it sometimes made me think that I was the one looking more for some romance than her in the era of our silly teen.
Things of childhood changed and we moved on with lifes. Neha always been the intelligent out of 2 of us, always gave hope of succedding to professional career with magical moments for our parents. Though I always teased her throughout our professional life that like me if she had to be in sales, why she ever gave me those envious moments during our PTMs at school.
However, what always made me look upto her with regards in life was her Compassion,maturity, sense of command over her life and decisions sometimes which had been tougher for me sometimes.
Despite being the elder one of the two of us, Neha had been the stronger one.
Keeping her naiveness to life and never exploring shores for which I had become an experienced sailor, I had always looked up-to her. We both had this gift of ever smiling face, for which till date I am looking for the family genes we got that from... ( Our parents had always been too miser with their laughters and I hardly remember ever seen them in my senses ever with Hearty laughter. ) Neha carried the one with all innocence and untouched of something called experience.
She has kept herself away from friends for he had been always clear of not carrying extra baggages for emotions she can't afford. Despite all the odds of family, she has still been the one to always keep things tact, when her impatient sisters have never bothered with the madness.
Calm and composed! That's how I have always seen her, always making me wonder as how she had been able to attain which me being the eldest is still practicing to be.
Today I am writing for her maybe after 30 years and wish that this is how I know her for the next 30. Raising to the eldest out of two of us!
Today and forever!
Lots of love
Anji
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