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Its sunday and I just got free after spending time with a boy I love... Yeah, drunk and certainly putting feelings on canvas or sheet in such situation is a challenge... Never thought that I will get someone who will make me forget him. Not that he is too caring or in love with me so much.. But, just his feature reminds me of somebody who had been so close to the heart at some point of time.

A lips which any women will crave for... Pink like rose and complexion just like the vampire I lure... Just blood less... Daksh, reminds me of him and ofcourse about lot of certainties if life would have been on the path destiny decided.

What is the thought about?... This is the common question which crops in my head and ofcourse of my readers everytime I put a blog here... Just listening to a song.. "Tum bin jaaun kahan' a tweet came across which said that in our life we always have someone we loved with our whole heart and destiny decided him for us.
Sometimes I feel, he and me have the same destiny... It was all decided. We were just set to be together in all circumstances of life we faced. But, somewhere he had been unsure.
Last blog I wrote about where I specially mentioned about getting back was about care. Once feelings end, we still have rhat care which just not let us slip the past with ease we want. Or is it love. A feeling which never let us move on with the best time we ever had in our lives. A feeling so confusing... Yes, love.

Listening to that sentence on "we always have loved someone truely in our lives... Maybe despite of all differences we had".. I always wonder, was it love that I had with him.. And if it was, why wasn't it powerful. Who was the one who let the things go.. Was I at fault or he?

Aaahhhh..let it be... Why to remember few things when they do not matter anymore... We both moved on with our lives.. Happy and blessed.. Only thing which I can say is that we were and are blessed with love... Let's live it :) :)

Lots of Love!Anji

Krishna- lets desire him this janmashtami :)

So, here come the birthday of the "Love Guru"... well, no... I have always adored Krishna... like all females, I too have this huge crush on the universe most charming personality and now as today is his birthday... cant deprive my thoughts to posses him for a while.

Krishna teaches us about Love in various forms... Divine, Pure and something which is beyond words.

"Laddoo Gopal"- Adorable son for whom any lady will give away her heart. Notorious little brat of mom, who is still irresistible after all his pranks and mischief.Be it be for mother Yashoda or any female of the village... Kanhaiya has been a son for whom any mother heart will crave for.

"Krishna"- sweetheart of all the ladies of town who controlled the rhythm of every heart with his flute. Krishna, have taught world the power of giving love to many at one time and feeling so pure and complete for everyone that never he broke anybodies heart and accepted each love with pleasure and gave to all in equal gratitude.

"RadheKrishna"- a name which is one of two inseparable soul. Radha was the mortal lover of krishna and the love was valued beyond any ritual of the universe that in spite of being married to Rukmani (incarnation of Lakshmi)  who was the better half of him, he still gave the complete possession of his name to Radha. Love beyond any bounding has been the language of Krishna.

"Mohana"- A name which is used in context of Meera... Devotee of Krishna who left her complete identity and existence for love of her life and soul. story just not hidden from anybody.

Krishna have given himself to everybody in whichever form people desired him... Son, Lover, Husband, Lord, Teacher, friend, Brother, savior...

well, writing about him and feeling Krishna today... I too desire him in the two adorable form... Son and Lover...

May this janmashtmi he gives blessing to our faith and come to us too in the form we desire him...

Lots of Love! Anji

Love or Care?

recently i had been going through some old chats of past conversation with somebody i adored a lot at time... the references wasn't due to the fact that all of sudden a vacuum was felt and mind got into the sudden need of filling it... but, it was more for a validation to the recent finding i came across. Well, now days it is more like exploring relations because entire world concept seems to be in confused state...

botheration of the hour was on a discussion... is it really love or care that we feel for somebody?

i mean... when things get over... and a feeling still remains and we can still feel a pull for someone very well knowing that at least now everything is over... then what is it that hangs on?

A pinch always at back of mind confirming someone's well being?
somebody name in prayers?

moreover when heart and mind is in sync knowing that it is not love anymore... then what?

care?

and then, when this feel is there... who is in much need of other?
one who cares about or one that is cared...
really don know... maybe still  finding an answer and like have to rush somewhere... ( I knw, its 1am in night but....) so, not much of analysis i am doing...

let me get back in the Sequel... ;)

Lots of Love! Anji