Delhi--- I owe you :)

Everytime I walk into the city of bright nights I wonder, man how am I able to keep myself away from her. My friends and known says that I have quiet a guy approach to life... Carefree, little messed up, unorganised... So, if I think in that context, I always get confused... 'Delhi my Love or Delhi my Maa'... Confused statement!

Brought up in Delhi, I always find a warm wrap around me when I am trolling on the Delhi roads. It is said to be unsafe city for girls but I have always been embraced with love and care whatever time I had been out and freeking out in my mom's lap... 5am in morning or 2am in night. It has kept me safe and warm. Always filled with emotion and feeling that  I belong to her... Completely.

Love coz it has made me and taught me to love... It has given me my bestest friends and ofcourse love of my life. It has given me everything I ever demanded or desired for. A charm which always keep me going and keep me interested in its mood always wondering, what next she has to surprise me with.

Aaaahhhh... Delhi... I owe you... Completely... I love your roads however broken n full of pits they are for I love walking miles on them and ofcourse driving... I love your nights coz whatever maybe the time ,occasion it has always bestowed me with fresh energy and motivation of keep going what may ever it be... I love your festivals for it beholds the charm of love and festivities and spread an aura which is completely mesmerising... I love your markets, plazas, food, style.... I am truly and madly in love with you :)

Lots of Love! Anji

Doon's colonel.

Ah, this one is an adventure to share. At my tenure in UPW I got chance to visit this city of India, called Dehradun... I really do not know what brings people to this city. But, for me was the calmness of the mountain, Liquors at the local pub and not to forget Momos... Oh, I love eating them siting at the serenity of the mountain and enjoying the evening pass by slowly leaving a charm in the atmosphere.

Dehradun was a short trip as it was purely official but yes, somehow a meeting with a stranger made it memorable. Don remember the name... Colonel I address him with... 60 yrs I guess, didn't bother to ask the complete name or age... And even if he would have told me, who remembers for I was almost a half bottle down of Vodka... My fav drink and yeah can drink entire bottle with the juice without even a slight refusal from my appetite :)

So, I just have a very faint memory of evening post my heavenly feeling after the Vodka but I do remember sharing a table with this old fellow, who despite of my beautiful smile and pretty attitude (I always don) guessed some issue with my life and counselled me about something which is so very important for us but we just decide to overlook it in our lives.

Its about us. What are we by end of the journey when its time to cross the bridge. He certainly and very patiently listened from me about this guy in my life and ofcourse understood the deep pain which I had at time coz of loosing a very good friend along with a lover in an instance. What he told me was that in the end, it is actually and only we which matter. World works on two fundamental, asset and liability (believe me man, my drink almost fell off my hand listening this... He was talking so Rajeev... Hahhaaaaa, maybe I was meeting the future version). Well, so the funda is simple asset is taken for granted and liabilities are always borne. Now, if I analyse the recent accident of mine... My car was an asset for me so I am hardly bother still on the repair but 15K I took from someone for the bribery, it was the first thing I cleared. Concept proved.
So, the gentleman, sorry.. Colonel told me that being a girl you always have to act a liability even if you are asset coz this is how men brain work. My mouth was almost to my knees listening him and I was actually wondering am I a fool or this gentleman sitting in front of me or the guys I had been in relation... Really do not remember much about the eve. But yes, next time I visit the place again gonna search for the pub if possible and ofcourse colonel too. Silly me, should have taken his number too along with passing my card and have not taken him like any passing strangers of past n present.

Anyways, as a famous saying... All has to be well in end or its still not the end... Hope I meet my doon's colonel again and this time in senses to talk to him... Hahahaaaa :)

Lots of Love! Anji

Surveyor Memoirs ...

One of the thing I guess we miss in Metros are those huge plants of engineering firms producing miracles of engineer mind's geniuses. In short, where do we see an engineering plant spread in miles sphere with those huge machines always making you wonder... Man, how did on earth humans even thought of it?

It happened that today I got this opportunity (actually necessity of sales pressure) to visit a corporate and in the winds of mud, dust and smoke (not to mention the sexy white top I was donning today) something just flashed in front of eyes... Well, my trip to Kota and I guess (if I remember correctly) Agra. It happened by chance or maybe one of the benefit of being in love with surveyor that I do visited similar kind of location somewhere in year 2008-2009 and yes, at that time completely viewing those gigantic machines with the similar astonishment and of course being at the destination for no work of mine and just to accompany a dear one for his surveys. But, never did I assume in my slightest thought that ever I would get a chance to visit or witness the same aura with lot interest and of course all alone without understanding the survey logistic behind those machines and the reason they are insured when they seem so unshakeable.

All I can say that memories do play tricks with us as due to certain recent incidents in life I have to come across an Insurance company...surveyor...engineering plant... dust... Machines... thoughts... Memories...

Nothing much to share though coz I know I will always be an illiterate soul when it comes to machine, gadgets, logic etc... But what I never ignore in life are signs... Recent ones seem to be lil unexpected but still... What's the point in ignoring life when you know straight it is just looking into your eyes and daring you.

Today I just missed few explanations of someone on something which had been never important to me but I always loved listening about them from someone's angle and knowing things from his point of view... Non-important, irrelevant yet one of  urgent need of life :)

Lots of Love! Anji

Anji's accident adventure!

Talking to a friend a thought just clicked me. Listening to my recent adventure he suggested me to pen it down and my instant reply was, yes I do write blogs. But, then wait.. If I give it a thought... My life has been full of so many adventures that a series can go about it.
Sad, funny, exciting, mysterious, romantic, musical... It had witnessed all.. My Life.. It rocks man!

Well, to start with let me experience the last or say current adventure all over again. 'Rajpura accident case'... Ahh, sounding like those funny daily soaps where we have some brainies fighting the crime and solving cases. This accident had been a normal one like any other but excitement got built post certain extra-powerfull spices added later (I m referring to my favourite Judge here, Tiwariji) . I like calling him by this name. Though haven't met Tiwariji in person but he has left an unforgettable experience in my life. Wow, now this is what I call being powerful... "Zikr bhi unka utna hi wajan deta hai, jitni unke mehfil me aa jane se ho jaati.."

So, I was driving back to Patiala.. With my crazy thought and agitation to crack a corporate, I was toward my destination and here goes the big bang... Something hit my car and I went unconscious... Well, it was quite a silly experience that 5 minute of my not being in senses made me wonder so many things that it quiet became a thought like a movie I saw some year back called... "If Only"... And here I was woken up with some banging at my car door and pulled out of car to realize that I had been hit by a car.. Called WagonR.

Like my any other normal day activity, I just abused the driver and asked him to get his ass off the place for all damage he did to me but guess Police people wanted to make some money out of the incident. I was escorted to hospital with help of my few lovely colleagues and only thought on my mind was about Silky (my car) for it was I gonna be all lost wit kind of damage she incurred... And then here comes 'the Anji twist'... I will call it this way just to give it a little personal touch as if I will keep on naming 'murphy law' all time.. Murphy gonna take the credit ;)

Post few hours do I got to realize that the car which hit me was a judge car and suddenly I have become the criminal from victim for the accident. By night we(here reference is to all my sweet bosses) realized that tiwariji is not gonna spare us and yeah... I am gonna pay for all damages.

Let not to mention the Punjab Police with their huge bellies... (I always wonder, what do they keep in their ;) ... They are extreme torture man!
I have been traumatised for 4 days for the case settlement so that Tiwariji do not put any FIR against me and yeah.. Like a common man (actually woman) in all hindi movies , I finally came out robbed of few good thousands of buck to get it all sorted out.

Funniest part of the recent accident and incident was... My car got hit, I almost died, I was the victim and here tiwariji makes all money?

Ouff...Indian Law... Man, we should rename it taking murphy's help... ;)

So.. All well that ends well.. Well, end is still awaited for like me is my stories... Unpredictable... Lot to be shared back home, with people along with my well being...

Hope is the one which keeps all going... I know, its useless to not hope any such adventure again coz I know me and my life... But yeah, in all this I do forget that here I celebrate my anniversary with Punjab and in a year time no doubt I have learnt a lot.

Captured in the adventure is the memoirs of 'Tiwariji' for he gonna continue to exist in my talks atleast for a lot time ... ;)

Lots of Love! Anji

To Life...

An experience of life so unexpected sometimes we face that it gives a complete u-turn to us and ofcourse to life.

Met with a serious accident today where the car almost got crushed like the scrum of paper. But, here I go... Saved , completely  scratch less. But the 5 min of unconscious mind witnessed life so closely and the reality sometimes get so overwhelming and yes sometimes so painful.

I once have (infact a few number of times) tried to get over a phenomenon called life. To experience what lies beyond the vicious circle of what we call responsibilities. But, the day I lost something very precious to my heart did I realised that how painful it is to live with guilt of our mistakes and moreover if we do not complicate things, Life actually is beautiful.

Its beauty filled with people we love... Whose faces flashed in the brisker of second making me realize and giving me an urge to tell them how very important they are and how much I love them... More than me and even more every moment which passes by.

Yeah... There are lot of "If only..." Which crossed my mind today and I really wonder that will I be able to make ever to them or maybe someday I won't be this lucky and will pass with this feeling in my heart that If only...

Nope... Maybe that is the reason I m blessed with this day to make most of it and live life with no regrets... I know, it won't be possible to get all out of it but yes, I promise to steal most and make most out of them... :)

Here I raise a toast to life and few more years added to the kitty ... Love, Pray and Live Anji ;)

Lots of Love! Anji

" Kyun khoye khoye chand ki talaash me , firaak me udhaas hai dil... "

Strange when everything just comes rushing back to you like it was never over. Need to feel that one arm wrapped behind you telling all is gonna be well or that urge to listen to that one voice making all the stress of day go away. Really don know things which were ever there really existed or was just some expectation of an individual knowing that if anything ever go wrong, they will always hear this one comfort and will find them wrapped around the soul of one they love.

Can't help humming the lines of one of my fav song... "Aaj shab jo chand ne hai ruthne ki thaan li.. Gardishoon me hain sitaare baat humne maan li.. Andheri sah zindagi ko sujhti nahi gali.. K aaj haath thaam lo ek haath ki kami khali..."
One of my very dear friend just suggested me that I should get married. Not because of any common reason followed by an Indian society but a very special reason given by him.. He told me that I really need someone 24*7 to take care of me for the adventure full life I need. Its like I am kinda 24hrs responsibility for anybody will love to deliver it. A tigress who needs a ring master to learn some rules ;)
Hahahaaaa.. Can't stop laughing on this now.

Nah.. Its not like I am against marriages, nope!... Infact I am a kinda friend who will be the first one to help a friend to run and get married or to get married to make it more simple. But, I just do not understand commitment stature of people. Little confused that when some love how they fail to be fearless or when some care how can they ever get week to fulfil their duties.

Human as an species sometimes scares me. Not that I don have some wonderful souls around who take care of me like kid... My one of the boss says... "Few people come on earth making God so happy that he grants everything to them.. I am one of the souls." But, still I do not know why I fail to make people my part at toughest situations. Maybe coz few failed me so badly that now I can't risk of loosing more.
Any ways.. Only reason to share the thought.. Well, not only reason to share but 3 reason to share the thought.. One, being with myself whole day yeah certain things have just came rushing to me which I thought can manage without. Second, my net not working and I wanted something constructive to be done beside the Guitar. Third, well... Let that be a secret ;)



" Kyun khoye khoye chand ki talaash me , firaak me udhaas hai dil... Kyun apne aap se khafa zara zara sa udhaas hai dil... Ye manzilen bhi khud hi taye kiye... Ye faasle bhi khud hi taye kiye... Kyun naye naye se raaston pe phir chalne ko aaj hai dil...

Dil ko samjhaana kehdo kya aasan hai,
Dil to fitrat se hi sunlo na baimaaan hai,
Ye khush nahi hai jo mila,Bas maangta hi hai chala,
Dil ki har laagi ka sunlo, dard hi hai ek sila...."

Ouffffff...

Lots of Love! Anji

I'll Always Care...

I'll Always Care

by BigDawg

Some days I feel happy. Other times I just feel sad. I think back on the memories. And all the special things I had. Some what Ive become stronger. And some what Ive become weak. I thought living would be hard. But Ive found it's easier to breath. I didn't wanna let go. But it's the only alternative I had. I moving on to the future. Although I'm a little bit stuck in the past. Memories still remain. But they will never fade. Letting go made it easier. And I feel better everyday. All though your still on my mind. And that's how it always will be. Ill never stop loving you. You're forever apart of me. You'll always be my. And you'll always be in my heart. I wish for all the happiness you need. But I think it's better off we stay apart. Ill always be here for you. Don't be afraid to give me a call. Don't let everything we had disappear. And don't let our friendship fall. If you ever need a hand to hold. Mine will always be there. Don't ever forget that I love you. And remember I'll always care..

tamaam umr yun hi majboor rahi uski aankhen...

aksar rote hue usne mere daaman ko bhigoya hai...

Lots of Love! Anji