26 Raghbir Nagar!

So, the long awaited write up. I knew, this piece will take hours and lot of peace. Time when I will be with myself...
Was just reading a book yesterday by Priya Kumar.. "Licence to Live".. What it said, we shouldn't live in past, past makes us old n withered!
But then, past are beautiful memories to cherish.. Memories we made, to be discussed for lifetime and smile about it. To have a reflection that life had been good so far, beautiful and completely amazing in its all form.

Everytime I pass through 26,Raghbir nagar (n I pass often though I have to take longer route) I get a warm feeling of beautiful days spent there. A man, who had not only been a mentor, boss, guide, friend but also like a dear father who cared so much throughout in my this span of life spent at patiala... A woman, an angelic soul, pure from heart , best friend, partner in fun , a mom whose smile always brighten the gloomiest day and her care always kept me assured that somewhere life is spent in heaven... And a child, piece of my heart , my love, my toy and a son whom heart have always desired , welcoming me home with his beautiful smile and sparkling eyes and waiving me goodbye till the time my car headlights turn on for journey ahead...

So, how can such a lovely memory wither u any form.. Instead it gives a pleasure though for a small while life has been lived good and just to the perfection of dreams come true... Well, who says dream don come true? I witnessed mine in full fledged form and making me realize that wishes are indeed answered well if asked from true heart.

I never take bet from life, I know its just unpredictable and ofcourse very small to fulfill all desires we hog onto.. But yes, one thing I am truely grateful about is that somewhere in my small journey I met Rajeev,Anu and Daksh Gupta... People, who made me realize how beautiful it is to go back to family in evening and spend life smiling... Crazily enjoying each others company... Being what u r in front of people we love.. Accepting the flaws with complete love and care...

I know, its still not the farewell... But then, as I said.. I never bet with life ;)

Lots of Love! Anji

The Vacuum..

So.. Here I am back home with empty heart n mind full of work to be closed in span of day or two. There is a good news too... 'I got promoted'... But, one thing I am not able to make my mind upto.. Why is this vacuum around?

My phone sms list is full of congratulations, constant ringing of phone since morning for work and now evening for wishes is driving me mad... Keeping me occupied.. but why I m constantly checking my inbox for a wish from an unexpected number?
Why will he know or who will tell him about it?
Those eyes with the thick eyebrows are constantly flashing before me in its most alive form. Eyes, which I am missing the most today... Voice which I wanted to congratulate me first on any vertical step of my life... Hands which I wanted to hold me tight and make me stay with my roots, my ground... Arms to give me its warmth around...
Seems the entire vacuum of these missing dreams are making the moment too empty and regardless of its identity..

The eyes with the thick eyebrows are piercing down the soul for they are the most desired at the moment but least required in the
Situation...

Guess, its the music that gonna save the evening.. But then again... Is it really this one I wanna hear?

"Aie sanam... Umr bhar... Saath saath hum rahen... Kehta tadap k ye dil mera..."

Lots of Love! Anji

Cocktail thoughts!

Well spend eves usually never let me sleep in night. Ofcourse, unless the alcohol factor is added in ;)
Sometimes, besides giving u a high alcohol also let u rest in peace. Away from your own worldly affair... Letting u sleep n relax inspite of the burning issues to be settled down post u wake up next day.

Friday eve- last day of drive with my sweetheart n those innocent chats of his own little world, last show of cocktail- movie too real to be denied and yes, made me quiet emotional as usual towards my own fantasy world... Perfect day full of all junks n even wishes I made- Adrak tea at Army Wet canteen, One go salad, Mc Donald, cocktail... Guess, I m a fool enough to waste such a wish full day n not bribe baba into something more lucrative ;)

Well, now there is a sleepless eye and thoughtful mind. This time its not about the usual relationship talks or maybe it is... "Love makes you go insane..."... One line reflecting in my mind from the movie... Veronica and Gautam did went! Lost their mind at a point.. Maybe they both were hurt. Meera was quiet for she knew she was the reason to all the pain..

Ahh! Not hitting the bush for no reason... Just that an ex called up few days back and knowing that I m seeing someone the first advice which came up "use protection".. That hurt a bit as first thought which clashed the mind .."Did he take me to be such a hooker?" But then, next was ... "Chill, big deal.. U did hooked with him. Why you even expect him to have very religious thought about u."

But then, did he said that out of being still hurt coz of me or he just showed me my reality?... Anyways, not much to ponder over for his thoughts for that's his freedom and I m no one to collide with it anymore.


But... Then, the day end brought in another thought... Why did Gautam didn't go along with Veronica?....

Lots of Love! Anji

Random thoughts....

Tired evening , limited time and unlimited thoughts.

Something is going beyond the control meter... Life! It always amuses me make me fall more in love with her...

Sir and mam shifting and here goes my heart with them- Daksh. These 1.5 yrs have been an amazing time like my dream world. My King of wonderland have given me my most non-expressed pleasure of life with his innocent company around.

A buddy left us forever. Met Ashish here in Punjab n have fallen in love with his passionate way of professional life. A diamond and a true treasure to team. 3 days ending the final journey of his life and now he rest in peace post giving so many memories to adore and reflect.

I always wonder.. What is more painful?
People separated due to death or destiny.. The choice between the 2 'D's'... Strangers become friends, friends become inseperable (sometimes soulmate) and then few are strangers again..

Anyways.. Reflection of thoughts are not about my understanding of acquaintances but it is more about "Being attached"... A term, lil difficult to make people understand as one thing which is valued most in relationship is "Blood Relation" rest all keeps on changing priority and Indian society, we are trained to take care of this one since childhood. But, are blood relations really stronger than the heart ones?

Debatable topic and going back to the first word of the write up.. I m tired :)

Lots of Love! Anji

A thought to share...

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colors seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”
― Bob Marley

Lots of Love! Anji