A month... Actually a year!

Strange feeling but cant help writing... as usual you see... Visited 'The Joker's profile"... I like calling it this way... I like remembering it this way... I don knw why but still... maybe we all move on life but it is simply amazing that how few things just hold us for seconds and make our present so tough and difficult for us.

I am on blog after a month... no, I didnt stopped writing... Hibernation...  We artist do it a lot time... Just getting completely in trance and then getting back to our real self.

so, month is for the blog... Year is for the thoughts.... both have come to mind with their own time frames.

mmmmm.... okay, i know writing is like getting naked in public... you just open your thoughts like your cloths. Only difference is when you are in love with it you make love and enjoy the aura of holding your thoughts so passionately in your arms and kissing each moment and planting your soft hands on each part (thoughts).... If you just enjoy... It is like sex... simple , sweet, hardworking.... but yeah, you enjoy it and when writing comes out of disgust, bad thoughts, hatred, negativity... you assault it. So, as a rule i never write when i am in such mood...

but what is it today?
Love?... care?
I exactly do not know.... it is kinda jumbled up feeling or maybe it is just a feeling for someone you do not how to react at?
You still adore each shit of someone, still you want to be sophisticated about your hygiene... quiet a strange feeling of human mind... I can never figure out this one...
maybe someday... One day i will and life can be little easier and at pace.

anyways... honest confession can be only that visiting someone after a year you still wanna make love to can confuse your entire logical thoughts and counters... But still, with someone thought in my mind and fingers on the keyboard... It gives me a feeling of smooth movement of my hands on his body and each letter i am penning (typing) down is like planting a kiss and telling... Yeah, I still do care and i will :)

Lots of Love! Anji