I am wondering what is that Love is all about?...

I am just confused and not able to think and decide,
Gazing at the sky I am wondering what is that Love is all about?
Is it about loving you till the end of my every breath?
or is it being committed to you till I die?
Is it about remembering the each promises we made together?
or is it about the harsh words to each other did we say?
Is it about being with you forever?
Or is it about leaving you for you turned away?
I know it did hurt a lot when you left me helpless one day,
what I also know that the feelings I had is still same till today,
I still adore those moments we lived together..
But know that somewhere they gonna pain forever..
And still I know that all memories will be kept safe in the heart,

for my love has been always more than the one it hurt..
I am wondering that what is this craziness all about?
With you is all the pain but they are one I cannot even live without!
Is love really all about giving with nothing in return..
or it is just a statement made by a fool who have never learnt to move on!
Why this feeling just seems to be a puzzle,
neither we are able to put together the pieces nor we are ready to struggle..
Why we are not able to carry our better self to the next one,
for we know that we have lost a lot already and now its time for all lost battles to be won!
Why is it with all the wrongs we still find that one person right,

and we know that nothing gonna stay and we still hold it all tight..
I always wonder that what is it that keeps that feeling going,
were we really so much in love or it was just a sour seed that we were sowing..
I wonder what is the end of all this ordeal?
Is it only the arms of one we love or we really is just a matter of someone's' care?
strange this feeling has always been...
even after so much confusion its that one person smile that we always see..
Love a feeling so dear, so painful, so confused...
I wish if only for one time from loving I would have been able to refuse..
Oh god, I cant believe that this is one feeling without which we cant survive..

still always do i wonder what is that Love is all about....

Lots of Love! Anji

Biggest Pain-Being Helpless!

Recently I came across this discussion about the biggest Pain of Life and as usual maximum votes went to 'BROKEN HEART'. There were few good quotes to add in to the discussion and the majority of voters... one was "Broken heart is like having broken ribs, from outside everything seems normal but it pains every time we breathe." A good quote I must say!

But, my only question to all the broken hearts is that have they ever tried to feel the pain of being helpless. A pain when you cannot feed your family knowing they are only dependent on you. A pain of loosing one of your body part or being physically handicapped and finding that you are totally dependent on somebody and what happens when that somebody is with you only feeling pity for you. A pain of having all the courage to fight the world and bring changes but then people you trust, believe , Love... Leaves you. Pain when you know that the person on the other side of table is your whole world but still you cannot do anything for them just because you do not that right anymore... Right to wipe their tears, embrace them in your arms, hold them tight the way you always use to do. Pain of hurting someone so badly and knowing that at first place you never wanted to do that and now you are too helpless to even ask for sorry.

I guess, Being Helpless is the biggest pain one can go through because somewhere the feeling of knowing that you can set things right but still not able to do even after all efforts you have put in or you are just not allowed by circumstances to change it, it burns you from inside.

I am not trying to say that it is easy to live with Broken heart or after loosing your loved ones... But, from the two we can always move on. Love heals all.

You have been left or somebody broke your heart can always be mended for someday somebody will come ready to give you all love you deserve.Yes, you just have to give in sometime to the relation and reciprocate the love you get from someone. It maybe possible that we are not able to get over with the past memory but yes, we will be able to move on more easily and with time we will see that replacement happened for good.

With the loss of our loved ones, we as human should be proud on a fact that neither we can remorse, grieve or sulk for much time. Love plays the magical healing ointment everywhere. The memories of the loved ones and the time spent with them will make you smile always and yes, maybe with a sigh for not having them around anymore we can always move on.

So, i just wish to all that never in your life you have to come across a phase where you feel being helpless.

Lots of Love!Anji

Memories... Silly they are!!!

Whenever i drink a lot... either of two things happen... either I cry or I laugh a lot... my emotions are equally crazy like me.

today i am really very confused. Do not know what to do, what reaction should I have.

I am drunk, but very well in my sense... I know i cant get off the bed but still i am completely aware that I am writing in my senses. Ekdum dil ki baat!

Maybe, this is the song... No, before you start guessing... Its not my song for somebody, its somebody dedication to me. Someone, I really don know what I have to do about.

Love happens once... With someone I know I was always in Love with and will be in love... but then, what is it that is still stuck with that Joker?

anyways... I don wanna discuss this... just remembered him so uploading the video... I have anyways decided few different things...

maybe... its the song i cant resist... love it :)

A perfect heart expressing video :)

Seriously... I have no gyan to express on this... it seems so very complete in itself :)

no doubt that God exist where love exist... He is there to take care of everybody :)

and the writings are so apt in this.. 'Beautiful' is the only word !

Lots of Love!Anji

Magicians down the memory lane...

While traveling i often look out of the window , sometimes enjoying the beauty and scenery outside but often lost in past thoughts.

I love living the beautiful memories and rejoicing the past and the people who though are not close to my eyes but are very very close to my heart.

Returning back from official review suddenly two faces passed the memory lane. Two great Leaders and the most lovable bosses I ever had. Mr Amit Mehta and Mr Rahul Dandona. Two names I met at two different instances of life but started knowing both of them during my tenure with the East Zone- Vodafone Delhi.

people say that one enjoys the work when they do something of their choice but I personally believe that it is not for the organization you work for but the people you have working with you along who make even the toughest days so smooth going and the most harsh situation so pleasant and calm with all their love, support and care they give.

Amit and Rahul are amongst those people who know how to bring smile to your face. They know that if one is feeling low you can always cheer them up by just being their and pampering them like kids. They know that somedays are boring and some are hectic at the work place so team need to be rejuvenated, now that is a complete discretion of theirs that whether the rejuvenation has to happen at Jim corbett, Nanital or at the Local Fun park or maybe a small Lunch at the near by restaurants.

If the team is able to achieve the months target then they are to be rewarded not by Cash or Gift vouchers or any expensive gifts but with the daily grocery stuffs used at home and now whether it has to be a toothpaste or Bournvita or Glucon-D that was decided keeping each individuals personality in mind and believe me, we all use to look forward to these gifts and RnR.

If store was in manning crisis any day they use to ensure to walkin at that store and keep alive the smiles on the face of each individuals so that smoothly they can sail through the operations and the busyness of the day and both use to ensure that in the bestest possible way.

Parties were not to happen at formal restaurants but visiting malls and Horror House. Movies were not the usual bollywood dramas but international flicks which nobody will understand.

The Duo was the best people I ever worked with and yes they will be little proud to know that till date nobody is able to break their record.

Its been almost 2 years but I still miss those RnR, Picnics, outings, Lunch, crazyness, Jokes, Childlike acts and those smiles which they use to just spread in the atmosphere like two magicians who are unbeatable at their show.

Best Leaders to work with for they have taught me the most of the skills I acquire today and have added lot of experiences professionally in my kitty for not only they were the best Bosses but the Best Guides that any amateur can ever have.

I must admit that yes, I am proud about all the professional moments and learnings I had with and from them but most I miss is seeing the duo together and spreading the smile.

You made each day Christmas for me for you both were my Santa in disguise :)

Lots of Love! Anji

Mohabbat me kuch pata nahi chalta... Bura hai par wo bura nahi lagta!!!

I guess this is the story of all in love... Society, commitments, promises... They take care of everything but the one they love. It is just so convenient to let that one go coz you know you would neither be complained about nor blamed for. Whatever happens in this world they will understand and support you always. With the same smile and the same love they always hold for you.

This is the only condition of love ,to Love unconditionally.

Love is always compared to God and lovers are always kept at the same position irrespective of the fact they deserve so or not but then, Faith is all about our beliefs and trust. If you have loved the one equally like your god, how can you doubt their intentions when you are always so confident that whatever god does is for our good. If we have the same confidence and trust then certainly this is unquestionable topic but if we doubt the person then certainly it was not divine feelings you had for the person and if the other one has not opted for your betterment then certainly they are just not the one for you. In that case, one should thank god that at least in all the mean affairs when everybody have just thought about themselves he has taken care of you :)

So, if its Love... love without questions and expectations and if either of the two is more important then please... Lets search for True Love. We are yet to find and experience it.

Lots of Love!Anji

Before I die... This is what i wanna tell all I Love

Thanks to my Lovely family and amazingly crazy friends for being there.

you are the one who completes my life and made me a human who value relationships and Love.

Thanks :)

Lots of Love!Anji

Digga ft. Ironik - I love you [with lyrics]

Just to share this... wanted to write but... don knw... maybe thoughts r in no mood to come in form of words :)

Wish... Guys were honest enough to believe... but, they are born _ _ _ _ _ _ _!!!!

hhahahahahaaaaaa :)

fill in the blanks ;)
Lots of Love!Anji