Ecstasy or Love....???

taaron ki jhurmut me, ghumsum se khoye se... bethe ho kyun raeth par...
aao na paas aao, aise na tadpao.... do pal ka saath hai ye...
Rango ko haathon me sama jaane do, mujhme tum sama jaao ya mujhko samalo inn saason me...
waada hai tumse, tera saath dunga.... jab tak hain saansen... tere sang jiyunga....

My all time favorite song for it always sooth me and my mind... an awesome song which always refreshes me...beats,  music, ambiance and memories... Deadly combo I must say. And when it comes to memories and ambiance... Nothing can beat the feeling of being in love... little crazy and emotional dialogue I must say but then being in Love always have a different aura...

Its always amazing to smile to someone text in the middle of the day, closing your eyes begging someone to let you sleep and opening it with someone's message always at your bedside.

Waiting entire day to talk to the one for few minutes in the evening or making thousand excuses with entire world to meet that one for just for seconds.

Stealing those kisses in public , or just sleeping yourself in someone's lap for you are too lazy to leave their side and go to bed. Doing every small thing possible to please that one soul and fighting your heart out with that one just because you are little upset with the world's way and then that one person insensitivity towards your bad mood :)

Promising every small thing in world to someone and forgetting those big days and then putting all your efforts to set their mood right and then laughing over your silliness and fact that oh man, you are so crazily-madly in love with this person sitting next to you smiling and telling that only thing they want as of now is to be together...

Love indeed is amazing...

and Music... mesmerizing... which charms you to the eternity of love... which makes you get lost in an ecstasy beyond words, sense, thoughts...

Yeah... with the current song I am humming and singing loud...I imagine... cold beach with chillier breeze... fire, drinks, music and you- Me and your comfortable lap... No words... just a feeling... so special, so divine...

Rango ko haathon me, sama jaane do... Mujhme tum sama jaao ya mujhko sambhalon inn saason me....

Lots of Love! Anji

I am She... Proud to be a Girl ;)

My sister just sent me an article recently... and I was quiet shocked to read the content... well, shocked wouldn't be the right word here... I was more of content and proud after  reading it for it was about a recent study by some doctor (name I forgot, but would love to share the article incase you want it personally). It was all about a healthy heart.

we all know that best way to health is happiness and way to happiness is friendship. Yes, friendship. Do any of us tell me one moment of life when we were unhappy with friends?
No! at least I do not remember any. I have always felt complete with them. But, article was more about having a lady as friend. Now, I am not being gender biased here. It is just about a study I agree with completely. It said, that when we are friends with guys... best we share is our drinks, smoke, secret and talks about general world but not our emotions... An old movie we all heard about "boys don't cry"... but, we all need a mate to share this part of ours and that study showed and proved that girls are best mate to share our hearts, emotions for when we get into any relation we give our souls to it.
Now, again I am not being a praise hungry woman holding the flag for the womanhood... Best example to prove this point of the doctor i can relate is our mothers. Whatever or who ever we are we are accepted completely by them and given always the best by her... though she never gets anything in return for what she is worthy of.

sisters... another angels on earth... when, two sisters or when a guy have a sister ... we can share our entire world with her... always... our first BF, a new lovely dress, our dates, our bad habits, our bad mood, our new girlfriend, latest crush... anything and that too with so much of ease irrespective of our age differences but then this level of comfort is not with the bros... No offenses to anybody but yeah... we are never so open to them... our friends become are better secret keepers instead here...

Our female friends... man, they are so caring... I have one... very close to my heart... Vijaylaxmi and we call her Amma out of love... she is full of love, care... never in my life there has been a time when I couldn't share something and maybe my bad emotions with her (well, sometimes I don't... for she is too very emotional). and, yes I have my guys friend too the strong and emotional hulks but they never understand life from my perspective, becomes judgmental and just too strong to let the emotions flow... And, when it comes to friend... I am too is one of the best my friends have for that is the constant compliment i have got from them and of course I have never disappointed them on this... and, not to remind... but I am a Girl too... :)
so, healthy heart guaranteed ;)

Anyways... the crux to entire theory is only that we as humans can always open are hearts best with ladies for they are blessed with sensitivity, patience, love, understanding and power to heal.

There are times when we come completely lost back home due to the hardship of the day we have faced and we get these women there always with a cup of tea and telling us that how happy they are to have us back after a long tough day and now it is our time to relax.

We know, when to let down our hairs and party, when to tie them back and be at your service with love, how to enjoy life by giving and not asking for anything in return... we know when to love you a lot to make your day shine and when to just give you a little kiss on forehead and express that you are important... when to scold you and show you the path which will take you to life and when to tightly hold your arms and ask to to just stay beside and safe.

So.. well, I am proud to be a girl and I happy about the fact that we care... a lot and from our souls :)

Lots of Love! Anji

Agnee - SHAM TANHA... :) :) :)

Just tpoo drunk to writev anything... but one of my fav song....

and i want to write a lot.... tomorrow maybe :)

but then... stilllll...........

Lots of Love!Anji

Series of uncertain thoughts..........

Do not know as to what title i must give to this... it is like chain of uncertainties... An incomplete night and restless me.
I wrote it few months back aloneness calms and somewhere i have got a huge belief in it... It do. Nothing can beat the feeling and aura of being completely you... No faces to put, nobody to explain yourself and nothing to be done to please other. But, just wandering... what is it that holds one back so strongly that sometimes we are just not ourself... So unconscious and uncertain with our thoughts... It is like that your thoughts have wings... huge , big and wide ones... Just not ready to settle in all its flight.
It acts just like our hearts... holding feelings without any reasons...

An act just so undefined or say so well controlled...

I know i have confused you all a lot... No, there is nothing wrong and I am in my complete senses too... No drinks today (Maybe, that is why I am writing all this nonsense... Drinks do make you talk sense man !)
Alright... Jokes apart... I am just confused on few (actually many) acts. its like-

• why when we know that the lady standing in front of us, holds our entire world we still do not let her get involved with it? (here I am referring to our moms... why like pschyos we always ask her to stay out of our lives when we know that she is the only one who created it!
• Being with someone you know that the only thing you wanna do is to hug that person tightly, plant a kiss on their lips and tell... Hey look, I don know how I am gonna manage but I know that you are the only one I can have my life with and without that it go completely unmanageable...So, lets keep aside the shit of formalities and be to the place where we belong!
• When we know that the only respite of life is to talk to that one person in the world, we still do everything possible with our will to not talk to them just because we want to prove a point that life can be lived without you.
• We know that it is one life we have got... You and me... but still we spend it according to the thoughts and expectations of other.
• I am being asked to be cautious when i do certain daring activities... but isn't life is about that one moment?

Why is it we all become so careful with life when we know that next moment who knows that maybe this is my last writing i ever shared with you... I always wonder that wasn't life was at it best when we were with our friends... so carefree, full of love-Life... why is it now that we all have grown?

why we feel guilty irritating and bothering our parents now when we know that through our entire childhood we have bothered them without any thoughts... why  we get so concerned when spending time with that one person we want (Don we remember... As a kid we all were so open about our best mates... even to an extent that we declared our marriages with them without knowing a fact about this legal relation....)

Why we get so cautious taking a joy-ride when we rode our first bicycle with so much fun.... Why cant we jump into water without knowing how to swim when we jumped into so many things as a kid without knowing where that path will take us....

I feel... Life is to be lived, not regret... If you do not like something, be open about it... Abuse, cry, shout... but tell that you do not like that!

Don hide behind the veil of cultured society!

If you love something... show!... never think even twice what that gonna get you in return... that one feeling gonna stay with you forever even if life wont!

Life is short... Yeah... really very short and believe me its twist and turns can sometimes make you witness another world in the same spain so never ever be cautious with it... Live to fullest for I believe we should not waste it just waiting for it to get over if we are burdened, to get it exciting if we are bored or for the changes to occur if we cannot change things not as per our likes...
Anyways... enough gyan on the series of uncertain thoughts...

Lots of Love! Anji

Don't worry about me, I'll be fine.............. I love the song... movie too ;)

Don't worry about me, I'll be fine
I'll make my bed and take my pills on time
And when I see somebody on the street
I make sure I say Hello, I say Hello
Don't worry about me, I'll be good
And I'll do all the things you said that I should
And when I see somebody on the street
I make sure that I smile (though I can't stand them)
They'll never know
They'll never see
They'll never get through to me, get through to me, get through to me..
Don't worry about me, I'll be OK
I'll be the quiet one when there's nothing to say
Just sitting by himself in the corner singing this song
Thinking of you..............

Don't worry about me, I'll be allright
It's just that haven't slept for 64 nights
Coz sleep won't come without your arms wrapped around my soul
They'll never know...

It's not that I got something to hide
It's just that, just that I got nothing inside
It feels like, feels like bulb in my ceiling went out
And I'm stuck in dark without you
No, I know I said that I won't even cry
But, but you gone so I see don't why
I shouldn't be spending every single day curled up on my floor
Thats my soul
Yeah I know there'll be times when we'll meet
Get a cup of tea or maybe pass on the streets
And everytime you look into my eyes you'll se I'm living this life
(just fakin it)
They'll never know
They'll never see
They'll never get through to me, get through to me, get through to me
They'll never know
They'll never see
Coz you are the only one, only one who ever knew me

Lots of Love! Anji

this is how it is...

Socha na tha... the most underrated movie of Imtiaz Ali... (maker of Love Aaj kal and Jab we met). Well, I love his all 3 love stories. But, this is a little confused one. To know the fun you have to know the movie. A complete practical fun... You see, either you accept or change things...
I love the song for it include the entire crux of not any relation but life.

well, this is how life is and even relations... full of dreams, hopes and expectations. But, do all get fulfilled?

As we grow up our hearts get broken and we too break few in the process. Few become learnings and few pain but then life goes on friends! It always does and we too have to move giving damn to lot many things.

So what, if few dreams have remained unfulfilled? So what if we did not get few things the way we wanted? We still have to and will continue the fight and move on in life!

well, rest is the song of-course... Amazingly beautiful and yes, my recommendation to watch the movie UAC this weekend.

Lots of Love!Anji