Series of uncertain thoughts..........

Do not know as to what title i must give to this... it is like chain of uncertainties... An incomplete night and restless me.
I wrote it few months back aloneness calms and somewhere i have got a huge belief in it... It do. Nothing can beat the feeling and aura of being completely you... No faces to put, nobody to explain yourself and nothing to be done to please other. But, just wandering... what is it that holds one back so strongly that sometimes we are just not ourself... So unconscious and uncertain with our thoughts... It is like that your thoughts have wings... huge , big and wide ones... Just not ready to settle in all its flight.
It acts just like our hearts... holding feelings without any reasons...

An act just so undefined or say so well controlled...

I know i have confused you all a lot... No, there is nothing wrong and I am in my complete senses too... No drinks today (Maybe, that is why I am writing all this nonsense... Drinks do make you talk sense man !)
Alright... Jokes apart... I am just confused on few (actually many) acts. its like-

• why when we know that the lady standing in front of us, holds our entire world we still do not let her get involved with it? (here I am referring to our moms... why like pschyos we always ask her to stay out of our lives when we know that she is the only one who created it!
• Being with someone you know that the only thing you wanna do is to hug that person tightly, plant a kiss on their lips and tell... Hey look, I don know how I am gonna manage but I know that you are the only one I can have my life with and without that it go completely unmanageable...So, lets keep aside the shit of formalities and be to the place where we belong!
• When we know that the only respite of life is to talk to that one person in the world, we still do everything possible with our will to not talk to them just because we want to prove a point that life can be lived without you.
• We know that it is one life we have got... You and me... but still we spend it according to the thoughts and expectations of other.
• I am being asked to be cautious when i do certain daring activities... but isn't life is about that one moment?

Why is it we all become so careful with life when we know that next moment who knows that maybe this is my last writing i ever shared with you... I always wonder that wasn't life was at it best when we were with our friends... so carefree, full of love-Life... why is it now that we all have grown?

why we feel guilty irritating and bothering our parents now when we know that through our entire childhood we have bothered them without any thoughts... why  we get so concerned when spending time with that one person we want (Don we remember... As a kid we all were so open about our best mates... even to an extent that we declared our marriages with them without knowing a fact about this legal relation....)

Why we get so cautious taking a joy-ride when we rode our first bicycle with so much fun.... Why cant we jump into water without knowing how to swim when we jumped into so many things as a kid without knowing where that path will take us....

I feel... Life is to be lived, not regret... If you do not like something, be open about it... Abuse, cry, shout... but tell that you do not like that!

Don hide behind the veil of cultured society!

If you love something... show!... never think even twice what that gonna get you in return... that one feeling gonna stay with you forever even if life wont!

Life is short... Yeah... really very short and believe me its twist and turns can sometimes make you witness another world in the same spain so never ever be cautious with it... Live to fullest for I believe we should not waste it just waiting for it to get over if we are burdened, to get it exciting if we are bored or for the changes to occur if we cannot change things not as per our likes...
Anyways... enough gyan on the series of uncertain thoughts...

Lots of Love! Anji