Even Gravity is not responsible for you falling in Love...

It took me an hour to substitute his picture or his name, but both the attempt went worthless. I think, I will never be able to do with the substitution anyways... may be a year or two will suffice the whole search ;)

Now what is that I like the most about being in Love of the idea that I was in love... I guess it is all about the person I was in love with or maybe it was the aura of our being in Love together. I still cant forget the first time I ever met him, so by himself but something about his angelic look took my heart away. No, not Love at first site. it never happened and I really don't believe in this theory too. You can never fall in love with the person without knowing him and maybe I fell so badly after completing knowing and finding his each weakness so unique and so very him... He made me fall in Love completely with him as a person he was and that is something which will always be special about our relation.

I heard something that marriages finish Love... Is it?

I guess that make it more strong by time knowing that each uniqueness you have been completely in love with is now onwards all your responsibility. I think problem occur when expectations occurs. But, why do we expect at the first place?

Did we fell in Love expecting that the other person will love us equally and same the each very day? No, it just happened... We grew with time... We all grow with time and I feel a couple should grow with time too but their Love should always be as immature and fresh as on the first day and maybe that is possible only when our second half is our Dream man/woman and not when we expect them to become our dream people. Expectations ruins the fun :)

Being in Love I have always admired his child like qualities and those complete non-stop irrelevant talks he do about everything he wanna do and have in his life. This liking have not come because I am in love with that person but the Love towards him like an elder have come because of my liking of his this quality. Given any point of time, I can always listen to him non-stop and that too without getting bored or expecting him to stop talking. I guess, the kid which plays in his eyes and on face while these talks certainly do take my heart away and make me fall in love with him all over again just like the first day I saw his angelic face.

And then, fun of a relation we always miss in front of our work is priority toward our Love. Have you ever tried bunking work to be completely with the other person entire day or maybe to go on a vacation ;)
Now, we raise our eyebrows to this then, is a surprise day for the one you love is so very big in compared to those 25 days you are always engrossed in work. I feel, its fun to sometime make the person your priority completely and certainly the delight which you feel is incomparable. I still remember those days fighting or complaining about doing this but then completely enjoying an evening or a day with him. I feel few unexpected things give you immense pleasure than all luxuries clubbed together.

Now, when talking about him I wanna mention another quality which always brings smile to my face... His Lazy nature or may be a confused attitude he toward life... Though somewhere I had a secret wish to take care of it for my entire life but then we always don get what we EXPECT! But, certainly love is not about this.. even you do not make to your expectation you can certainly and always blush about few things.. And though I know that it is one of a complete negative quality but still thats what make his so special.

Love is indeed a beautiful feeling all together. I personally feel that if we have any valid reason for fighting or giving up few things in Life... It is certainly Love... No doubt this makes the journey worthwhile no matter how and where our destination or destiny is.

so... falling in love with you was like a fairly tale... I understand that it is a real world so had less chances for happy ending but somewhere I will always be delighted and blessed about the fact that you made the ride worthy.

Muah...
Lots of Love! Anji

Its not your fault for I love you...

Came across the song by Aadil... Hope you remembered this DJ. and cant help humming the lyrics and here a small poem :)

Its not your fault for I love you... Its just something still bind us together,

I also know that moving away take just seconds and moving on forever,

yesterday when I kissed you goodbye I knew it pained deep inside,

but its just a matter of time and I know everything gonna get alright,

We both will move on our separate paths and will do our responsibilities,

for love was always an asset of ours and never a liability,

and i knew we will still be friends forever though how far we live,

coz its not only about the pains but also all the love you selflessly gave,

and always will i held my heart up and loudest will be my shout,

for i will always be proud about us and the relation it was all about,

I know you had to move and I will never gonna stop you,

But again its not your fault for I still and will always love you...

Lots of Love!Anji

Believe in destinies?

With my habit of going through some videos i came across this one now... and believe me, no emotional stuffs i am writing but a true fact. But, before i open my mouth.. a must compliment.. Awesome song this is... Loved it :)

Now, Do u guys believe in Destinies?

You will say.. 21st century, and this crazy woman talking about destinies and fate!

But then, it is strange that we come across it daily. Yes!

and one thing i always say, be careful for what you wish for and always believe in your heart for heart holds the true feelings to anything in this world... whether Hate or Love, it is always sure about what it wants.

We all wish for things from god and then when we get it, completely forget that how much we needed it at one time. You will say, that maybe when god granted us we did not need it anymore and thats where i say, that means that the thing we wished for was never important at first place, it was a timely demand and something we can take care even if it does not exist in our life. what a waste of wish!

At heart breaks we wish so much for patch up but do we ever realize that it is we who have to do the things right or put in that effort because the other person is need for our soul and it is our heart wish... are we really so adamant to have that as our destiny that we are ready to do everything to get that small desire of our heart? If not, then forget it and move on :)... but, if you cant then please do something about it. It is your destiny and you have to make it!

Believe me, our all wishes are granted and it is only we who loose their importance with time because that was never so important for us that it made our lives incomplete. So, if we have a half filled dream, a love to get, an ambition to achieve... Lets get going... Lets create our destinies and if needed, lets fight for it if needed, instead of having a regret that we could have been happy but we just not put that extra bit ;)

Lots of Love!Anji

Liabilities of Love...

December is weighing me down not because of some big burdens but few thoughts of past.
I remember september when sitting with him in one of the gardens we discussed a very important talk with light chat. But, i realized it importance somewhere in december.

He told me, relations are to be handled with care and not taken for granted for we were discussing our break-up and he told me that would i have been so adamant on moving out of his life if we were married?

that question of his somewhere shut me up and made me realize importance of liability that day. So, is marriage a liability of love?

don know how many of us treat the family members of our love like our family member before we get in tied with the liability or how many of us really take responsibility of each other before we are again put in to the liable deal?
I guess, none.
Does a wife or a husband react to their mates same way a girl friend or a boy friend will react if they cheat?
I don think so... somewhere the liability ties them and bound them to be together with all the compromise.

But,in love we take our leverage anytime without being responsible for we are not liable. We walk-in and walk-out of it and can always make our individual decisions.
We can always chose to be with the different partner or change our partners...
We have no liabilities to bear the responsibility of family members.. nor we are liable to plan or support each other life.. Just an ease of taking stands of the convenient option.

So, sometime i really wonder that why people say that love has to be selfless... is it some tact by a smart person to get rid of all liability n responsibility or it is just a hidden suggestion to all lovers that it is always better to get into liabilities if you are not capable enough to be managed as assets ;)... well, we all need warranties for everything so how can we leave heart aside :)

Point to be noted My Lord, I guess Marriages are liability of Love.So, if you wanna be happy n a free bird.. You know you gotta b single ;)

Lots of Love! Anji

You can Learn to Love only by loving

Laid my hands on Zubeidaa after a long time. There is something which pulls me to this movie.

Maybe LOVE.

One of the strange movie I saw and till date my favorite. Cant believe it is a real story on some one life. How can one bear the pain of love is best showed in the movie. And ofcourse, what an Indian society takes out from the woman :)

Zubeidaa... A girl full of Dreams, Life, passion and here she was in a conservative family who married her off without will, always interfered in her life to an extent that she got divorced with her father consent. and then she fell in love with her dream man... Love can make you do unbelievable, unexpected :)

She leaves her family, her child and her identity for the one she loved... So madly in love she was with her man- Her Life. And then one day she realized that this small and only happiness of her life is going away too and she did something which was shocking... A Mystery Death... A plain crash!

But anybody who can understand love will tell that Zubeidaa did the extreme for her love... Yes, her only desire was that. Love and to be Loved and she gave in all to that.

Karishma looked the most beautiful ever in this movie of Shyam Benegal and her performance is simply splendid.

A master piece is what i can call Zubeidaa.

"Abke bichade hum yun milenge khwabon me... Jaise sookhe phool milte hain Kitaabo me..."

Lots of Love!Anji

How the hell can God create something so AMAZING ;)

now... I don know i am complaining or i am astonished but really do not know how can any body create something so amazing like MOMS!!!

man.. you sneeze and she knows sitting miles away that there is something wrong with you. and seeing myself in and out... I always compliment MY MOM that she is doing a commendable job ;)

i still remember a night when i was just feeling lil uneasy and bored and slept off to kill all bad thoughts and morning was her miss call just at the time i felt relaxed the previous night and certainly i woke up with her morning call too where she asked me all about the previous day, food, health, winter clothing...ouff... how did she knew that last night i really wanted that warm hug and care for the day was realy realy long!

But then... Do i have an option to say but accept that SHE IS MOM..... THE BIGGEST MAGICIANS ON PLANET EARTH!!!!

always i have been a real pain for her... my habits, my tantrums, my freaky nature, my wild and crazy dreams, temperaments... and all she accepted with patience and smile... and only one thing to ask for.. My happiness :) :)

How can anybody be so selfless on this god dammit planet? How can anybody just give love and care and not ask for even a thanks in return?

MOMS.... what are you made of ;)

love you yaar... and just wanna say... i am a luckiest idiot to have you in my life to always keep me safe :)

MUAAAAHHHHH :) :)
Lots of Love!Anji

"Lost my soul" - Its true love takes more than your soul from you!

Well... Putting Twilight here is the best example to describe the write up. Bella was ready to give away her soul for her love... what a great sacrifice?
but, don we do that sacrifice daily?
there is a famous saying... all is fare in love and war... well, i have never experienced war but Love certainly make you do unexpected.
It is like a drug... you fall for it and there is no way out. Either you need to have it to keep you sane or you die!
and in process to have it you do everything which is unfair.. unethical.. illogical and sometimes certainly unexpected.

Remember... what fun it is to lie to entire world for one you love... to meet him/her secretly... not telling the world that you are in love but blushing at the every mention of the one's name :)

Well... this is puppy love we are talking about... one we experience in high school, college...
Then comes... a mature love story...
two responsible individuals but then equally in love with their ego clashes... family...society... commitment... But, then there also goes all the tricks of the trade.. you will fight with your parents.. daily! telling them not to decide about your life... you give a damn to society and walk out having the most beautiful experience of your life and commitments????... what word is this?

And then an soul less act... breaking hearts... lieing every moment and not able to decide what you want... not able to decide... just like a drug addict... wanting the drug every moment but not fighting coz of lack of courage... ouffff.... thats painful now...but... we do that soul less act still...

anyways... as somebody said... "Drug either gives you the best feeling of being high or Kills!!!"...


Lots of Love!Anji

YouTube - umr bhar

YouTube - umr bhar -Made by henna rajora

okay... this dedicated to some one really special.... it has all my thoughts for you :) :)

Its just to say... He completes me !

Lots of Love!Anji

YouTube - umr bhar

YouTube - umr bhar

Lots of Love!Anji

I can give up anything to listen to this song daily :) :)

Its sooths you like anything man !!!

Oooooo...... I love Notebook :)

Lots of Love! Anji


Saw Notebook today again... this makes it 10th or 11th time, don know :)
beautiful movie that make you believe in timeless love and that relationship is all about passion and togetherness :) :)

i wish all in love a life of Noah and Ellie... and for broken heart- there are lot many ways to cheer up dude ;)

And yes... do enjoy the song i love in the movie :) :)   (Reminds me of someone !!! and I am sure will remind of you of somebody too ;).... if not, You Lucky chap!!! )

Billie Holiday - I'll Be Seeing You Lyrics

I'll be seeing you
In all the old familiar places
That this heart of mine embraces
All day through.
In that small cafe;
The park across the way;
The children's carousel;
The chestnut trees;
The wishin' well.
I'll be seeing you
In every lovely summer's day;
In every thing that's light and gay.
I'll always think of you that way.
I'll find you
In the morning sun
And when the night is new.
I'll be looking at the moon,
But I'll be seeing you.
I'll be seeing you
In every lovely summer's day;
In every thing that's light and gay.
I'll always think of you that way.
I'll find you
In the morning sun
And when the night is new.
I'll be looking at the moon,
But I'll be seeing you.

For it is really very tough this way to let you go...

Lots of Love! Anji



I know today is the last day I hope to be with you,
If you will ask me to smile I will still do it for you,
You ask me to dance n I will rock all the beats for you,
You ask me to talk and endless can I go,
For it is really very  tough this way to let you go...
You ask me and I will make the springs blossom again,
You demand and I will give in all without you have to say,
You fight and I will hug you and forever make you stay,
You love me and I promise to love you back every single day,
For it is really very  tough this way to let you go...
Every song will I sing which you sang to me in past,
I will joke the way forever to make your smile last,
I will be the kid to you forever if this will grow our love,
And I will be your best friend for all you promise to stay,
For it is really very  tough this way to let you go..
It paining deep inside to not find you near,
And each moment of this loneliness fill my eyes with tear,
For I know I will look for you again on bedside when I sleep,
All your memories safe inside my heart always will I keep,
But I also know that no more you belong to me,
And its paining deep inside my love,
For it is really very  tough this way to let you go...
For it is really very  tough this way to let you go...

Last night with you...

Lots of Love! Anji 

drunk and deep in my thoughts do i realise
how much this heart loved you
for today is the day full of pain and sorrow
for today onwards forever i will ,miss you
i miss the arms wrapped around my chest
and yes i do miss the warmth of you
for today is the last night i again wish to be with you..

i know tomoorrow you will no more be mine
and neither will any of the past memory will hold its value
i know tommorow is trhe last day i will have the last look of you but
for today is the last night i again wish to be with you..

all the memories of oiur love and all the thoughts of having you
will go out in itys way one bny one for you will belongh to
somebodyu you are commiyteed to but'
for today is the last night i again wish to be with you..

i need you close and warnm enough to heat me again
from the chilling winter of the season as it kill me with its hand
i need you wrapped arounfd my body like the blanket odf the past
i do not undersatnd still the new form of you
for today is the last night i again wish to be with you..

i still desire of my losty dfream from you for yoiu are the one
whom this heart have always placed neafr from all the loved one
but today youn are gone to someother arm and still
for today is the last night i again wish to be with you..

i wish tyo make love to youy]
for youb are the one i was always passionmaye abpout
and i wish to close you tight agaubnst my body
like the summer heaty never will i go
for today is the last night i again wish to be with you..

broken heart i wish you goodbye
never again will i ever cross yourv path anbd say you hi
but its my last request "hug me love..."
without you i will be lonely and will i cry
for today is the last night i again wish to be with you..

i klove gyou and will alweays love ypouy
you be far or you be neafr to the heazrt'
but then all the distance will i maintance still for you we;ll beinhg
still the last requesty and i wanna make iot worth too
for today is the last night i again wish to be with you..
for today is the last night i again wish to be with you..
for today is the last night i again wish to be with you..

Smile Tricks you!

Lots of Love! Anji

People say for being a bluffer we have to posses lot many quality... well i say a smile will do!

I have reached this conclusion by witnessing one of my very good friend condition. I must say, she is a tough hearted bitch!

I know Ananya since childhood. She is like part of mine. A bubbly and kind hearted girl. Always a lovable creature. I call her creature because sometimes she is at par with we human qualities. Good or bad I don know but somewhere this heart will always respect her.

And well, when i talk about bluffing she is really good at it. Seeing her nobody will ever tell what pain that bitch is going through but she will always make you jeolous with her laughter as him sorrows have never touched her when they seems to be an integral part of our life. I mean, we get depressed on everything, from our bosses to our jobs, family matters to our small personal affairs. Everything seems coming down to us and we feel so helpless in this cruel manipulative mean world! and here is Ananya... always laughing for what may be the situation is. For her , boss is human too and human are tend to be challenging, unless there is no chaleenge in the job there is no fun of work, Family is your best friend so one must keep playing around with them and as far as the personal life goes "who cares!"- these are the two words she has to say. But, will anybody ever understand what her little heart goes through? i always run to her with my slighest of issues... hair cut to dress not suiting me, boy friends to new crushes, breakups to appraisal depression and she always welcome me with this cheerful face and smile of hers as if telling that there is nothing more important than my binnaca smile in this world and guiding me through each phase of life.

Today too i was depressed on my small issue of life and went to this lady who gave me resolution to the issue in an instant and I moved back to my work and an evening party post that in a real light mood. But, will anybody ever analyse what she must have been through tonite. Love of her life is getting married in another 24 hours. A guy whom she loved more than anybody in her life. They both have broke up a year before and no more on talking terms too , but still she accepted his friendship when he came back to her almost 15 days back and welcomed him with the same smile she always had for him. Today too she has communicated the same way to him full of smile and laughter as if life is all about it. But, being a girl i can say how much pain she would be going through from inside for letting someone go whom you loved so deeply with such a broad smile is certainely not anybody cup of tea, but that woman is being doing it with her full heart knowing that it gonna tear her apart.

i have heard as a saying that nothing hurts more than love someone we cant have... certainely she must be in pain.

well, don havemuch words to the situation but will pray god be with her and let her get through the pain for he is the one who brought her to it :( 

Winter Mornings-Sex or Love Making

Lots of Love! Anji



Got up with the naughty thought in the morning with sudden realization of winter chill down my waist and legs for the blanket decided to strip few part of my body.
What do we people crave for, is it love or Sex?
A tough question.
Sex is an eleven minute activity so very well defined in one of my favorite writer book "Eleven minutes". But, is love too an eleven minute activity?
i guess No, love is more beyond it and it is not what is sex completely that a body craves for but it is indeed love.
Now, i know you all will be countering me blaming me for my Indian mentality but then my answer to all your question i will like to handle with two examples i have to throw as my cards :)

Talk about Sex, it is so freely available, anywhere you go- paid or not paid , it is just so very much available.But the question is that if i see from a women angle, does this 11 minutes activity actually satisfy her? or what good does it do expect about satisfying the organ of the body which cannot stand its erection for long ;)
i wake up in the morning filling so dizzy and looking for someone beside me, but was it for sex?
No, sex is just call away and what do one have to do in it (if it is not a paid profession)- Just lie there and enjoy the pain coming...?
i mean, what pleasure?
how can you think of giving someone that kiss so hard on their lips when you even don want the person the next moment around you!
Or what all innovation you can do with this term called Sex if not lying on bed and enjoying certain body pleasures?
Now, here i do not talk about kamasutra, a Yoga i would call it for how many actually take sex as a part of exercise (not to forget that yogist/trainer do recomend that to stay young one should have sex 3 times a day). But, again here i am just talking about 3 letter word-SEX!!!!

And now on the other hand i talk about making love- a very broad concept understood by few but challenged by all ;)
What is love making?- a polished way to call Sex!
but, i would disagree to this... it is just a part of emotion called LOVE. An eleven minute activity is just such a smaal part of this term!
Have you ever imagined kissing someone so hard in heavy rains, when all you care about is not getting wet but to have more and more of that person?
Driving on crazy highways and then when you cannot stand the distances from the one sitting next to you, so inviting , so intoxicating... You do the unexpected?
Having bath together?
Going ahead and licking one's body with oohh so famous choclate syrup..
making out not only on Bed but... Sofa, kitchen tables, study tables, bathrooms, chilly floors or any damm place you both c an be together...
now, is all this only possible coz you are too horny to prove yourselves to your partner or the fun of all this is because you enjoy ur togetherness. You enjoy feeling eachother in your arms.. under gthe warmth of your body... not becuase it gives you only certain body pleasures but you feel so secured lying beside the one and feel so blessed waking up beside the one. Or even the activity had been one of the crazy acts (like all those places i mentioned about making outs- to add, Your terrace too ;) it is always fun to laugh with the one you love post the crazyness.

Now, do sex has the same Aura?
i guess, the answer is No :)
You ask now,"But, love making is always possible with anybody you knw, maybe your best friend."

But then, i never classified the person you need to make love too... i just said that love making is a beautiful concept and it becomes more beautiful with the strong feeling of how much you want that other person in your life... rest, i can never comment what love is or not but certainely the picture i attached with my thoughts describes it way beyond :) 

Khamosh raat ...

Lots of Love! Anji




Nights


Khamosh raat se puchti hun main aksar,
Itni khoobsurat hokar bhi tu tanha kyun hai..
Kaunsi reh gyi dil ki wo muraad adhuri,
Sab hai tere paas par tu gumshuda kyun hai..
Pura dikhta hai wo chaand bhi tujh par,
Taaron se bhara hai phir bhi adhura kyun hai..
Khamosh raat se puchti hun main aksar,
Itni khoobsurat hokar bhi tu tanha kyun hai..
Le ata hai uski yaad bhi tere ane ka pahar,
Tujh jaisi hi ho jati hun main bhi kuch,
Jaane ye virah ka silsila kya hai..
Khamosh raat se puchti hun main aksar,
Itni khoobsurat hokar bhi tu tanha kyun hai..
Kehte hain baba sabse sunder hota hai sehar ka wo pal,
Adha andhera aur aadhi roshni hai jisme..
Par ye tera shyam rang mujhe bhaata kyun hai..
Khamosh raat se puchti hun main aksar,
Itni khoobsurat hokar bhi tu tanha kyun hai..
Ek baar dekha tha vrindavan me tujhe kaanha k bhi saath,
Kadam par betha bansuri se wo mujhe aaj bhi rijhata kyun hai..
Khamosh raat se puchti hun main aksar,
Itni khoobsurat hokar bhi tu tanha kyun hai..
Yaad hai mujhe us din ka tera wo tanha guzar jaana,
Uski yaad me jab un galiyon me do aansu bahaye the..
Aaj bhi magar un galiyon ki mitti nam kyun hai..
Khamosh raat se puchti hun main aksar,
Itni khoobsurat hokar bhi tu tanha kyun hai..
Soti nahi thi bachpan me maa meri,
Jab saari raat me shaukh se jagti thi..
Aaj usi chote se ghar me akeli jagti wo pareshan kyun hai..
Khamosh raat se puchti hun main aksar,
Itni khoobsurat hokar bhi tu tanha kyun hai..
Ek ansun bhi na dunga vaada kiya tha usne kabhi..
Aaj in ankhon me ye dariya kyun hai..
Kaisa riwaaz hai ye bhi mohabbat ka,
Vaadon k saath dil toot ta kyun hai..
Khamosh raat se puchti hun main aksar,
Itni khoobsurat hokar bhi tu tanha kyun hai..
Jaagte hain tere saath kuch hi deewane aksar,
Ishq,shayari,sharab ka ye nasha kya hai..
Saath rehkar bhi saath nahi rehte apne,
deewane ko apni deewangi me ye maza kyun hai..
Khamosh raat se puchti hun main aksar,
Itni khoobsurat hokar bhi tu tanha kyun hai..
Taakta dur un aasmano me,
apni taqdeer musafir dhoondta kyun hai..
Raaste kho par bhi khuda par jaane,
Bando ka rehta hausla kyun hai..
Khamosh raat se puchti hun main aksar,
Itni khoobsurat hokar bhi tu tanha kyun hai..

Umr bhar hum ye gunah karte rahe

Lots of Love! Anji

Umr bhar hum ye gunah karte rahe,
Dosh dil ka aur aankhon par sitam karte rahe...
Uski bewafai ka shikwa na kiya,
Aur us bewafa se wafa karte rahe...
Umr bhar hum.................
Mohabbat me barbad pehle se hi the,
Uski yaadon me phir khud ko tabah karte rahe...
Umr bhar hum..................
Chot kuch aisi khai dil par,
Tamam umr phir dil lagane se darte rahe...
Umr bhar hum....................
Ab aadat nahi unko hamari us tarah,
Jinke khwaishon par hum jaan nisaar karte rahe...
Umr bhar hum.....................
unki berukhi ko narazagi samajh kar hum,
Unke aane ka intezar karte rahe...
Umr bhar hum.......................
Yun to waada tha khud se bhul jaenge unko,
Khud ko bhula kar hum unse pyar karte rahe...
Umr bhar hum..........................
Kaisi hoti hai deewangi mohabbat me,
Khuda se badhkar unki bandagi karte rahe...
Umr bhar hum...........................
Tere aane ki aas bhi hai aur tera yakeen bhi nahi,
Band aankhon se phir bhi teri rah takte rahe...
Umr bhar hum............................

Mohabbat k silsile purane hue,

Lots of Love! Anji

Mohabbat k silsile purane hue,
Unko dekhe bhi ab zamane hue..
Jal utha hai dil phir unki yaad me,
Jinke intezar me hum parvaane hue..
Kuch yun nikla unse apna pan hamara,
Khud k liye hi hum begaane hue..
Do aansu bhi bahaye to ab kis kandhe par hum,
Unke pyaar k do bol to ab afsaane hue..
Jalta gya kuch yun aashian mera jaise,
Jalane ko use sab hi shaamil hue..
Ek baar bhi use paas na bula sake hum mana k,
Use gale lagane k kai mauke hue..
Teri aankhon se abhi pee bhi na paye the hum,
Tere gham me ye do aankhen paymaane hue..
Maana k kuch nahi hai magar kuch hai bhi,
Kaise keh de k tujhse begaane hue..
Ishq me tere basta nahi hai mera ghar,
Kis zid me magar dekh hum banjaare hue..
Tanhaiyon se mujhe lagta nahi ab darr,
Teri yaad to bas bahaane hue..
Kaise karun ab main teri bandagi mere khuda,
Tujhko unme dekh hum unke deewane hue..
Mohabbat k silsile purane hue,
Unko dekhe bhi ab zamane hue..

Aloneness- Sometimes it do calm :)

Lots of Love! Anji

Chandigarh is a beautiful place and more beautiful are its few places, to name one is Sukhna Lake. free from office little early today, i went to the place to enjoy the Autums of the place and the lake view. these places are often surrounded by couples. couples who have come there to pass their time away from family, couple to do patch up from their fights, couples to have their first date and couples to break forever.
Amongst the young we also find the couples who have grown together with time hand in hand and with the most beutiful asset of their life-Kids. And, lastly we also find couples who have conquered the battle known as time and have won their gray hairs to stand by each other in the few last step of the journey called life.

well, in all the crowd you do see few lonely birds, waiting for their mates to come from the day hunt or one who have lost their mate to competition ;)
and seeing their emptyness i always wonder... do love really leaves us so shallow and deprived of life?
i mean, isnt it okay to be single for sometime and enjoy the virtue of aloneness by giving worth to your own company.
Who in this world know you better than you?
who in this world knows better than you what you want, what makes you happy, what make you feel shattered, what make you cry... i mean, who else but you are your best friend.

When you are with yourself and no restrictions, no comittment do you realize that life is so beautiful, so free... and there is world to be seen beyond the one we usually holds onto without realizing that moving of that person from our life just leaves us with no option (you don believe me dude, close your eyes and try to imagine next one day even without talking to your better half... Ouch! that pains deep!)

but then certainely.. life is beyond this one pain and i guess we all should learn it if we are not amongst the last two groups of couple i mentioned.

After Break up- The beginning

I guess we all have gone through this phase of life and i promise you an interesting story on the life of a great friend i know.

But, one thing is sure... you gonna enjoy the ride through there life and believe you me ... Each word and each incident i mention is true and real just like the lady typing the words on the page...
so, here goes the beginning (Ahem!! this poem i have written is dedicated to the Assholes who just cant keep their promises and me being the girl will take the side of the fairer comodity for i too agree, Girls r always right!)................................

Life will be beautiful, you promised one day

And with you did my everyday turned happy and gay…

I loved the way you looked into my eyes

‘You are mine bitch!’ you will claim and always made me cry…

I remember your fights you did on our every meeting

The way you hurt and with love did I took your every beating…

You nagged like a kid on your every demand

From my looks to your life every thing you always planned…

Its you who turned my dreams to desire

For marriage was never on my mind how much I conspire…

Then it all turned weird one day

The dream to have you with your kids got lost in some way…

You decided to move on for it’s a Break and not a break up

Tell me, what else I could have done for you were no more there to look up…

 

Half-heart though but I accepted it all

One day you may realize and come back from your fall…

I lived each moment with you without a thought to give

Today I think a lot before even to text you a single message I pick…

Time has changed and will change from month to year

I lost you today, for loosing you were once I feared…

I don know how much does a heart holds on or survive it after

But the pain changes to Anger, and it does happen after a Break up.

p.S- just to remind myself and all that the story is totally contrary to the poem for i promised all a joy and fun ride and me being a lil occupied with the worldly affairs will be able to narrate only a piece daily like a story teller :)

Memories do kill!!!

we watch a movie and find it so funny with all the melodrama... i mean, i was seeing this silly movie where the actor and actress had a break up and they start visualizing in all place... well, it was a year i saw the movie.. before my break up ofcourse and i simply laughed it out.
i mean.. what the f**k, who see eachother like this all over the memories and here i am making a fool out of myself on the same :)

its been some 10 months (including the repair structure which didnot work) and we have almost stopped seeing and believe me i have to run from the city to stop seeing him at regular places when he just even do not exist.

i have stopped going to pizza hut for the regular service guy will always ask for him, i cut my visits to CCD for i am not able to explain my single presence to the wondering eyes...i do not visit markets for it seems the place is full of him..

i am sure, i am not the only one doing the stupidity for we all get our doses of life...i know it is tough to get over cold winters wen someone afrm have always warmed you. and it is  ceratinely impossible to get over your phone screen in this tele-world wen it has been smothered by someone messages always.

well... it is just a random thought i hav written on a stupid winter evening when after a good 10 month also, i am expecting my phone screen to flash his name when the number is changed good two times.

anyways... life is always smart on us and i am sure we all have a kiiler memory to share...

OMG!!

Memories, do kill!!!!!

The First Step...

Well today is the first day here and sitting in an ideal room the thought has just clicked to get started...
who am i, what i do.. will come in form gradually... as of now.. i am a writer and a good friend who can give in a good bite to lot of your thoughts and share few good pieces of mine...

one thing i promise is to be honest wit all and same expected wit you all :) :)

so... Welcome Anji :) :)